I may as well be a vampire
I may as well be a vampire.
Not for the blood-sucking and definitely not for the “no garlic” rule, but for the “I-can’t-cast-a-reflection-in-a-mirror” aspect of vampire life.
See, when I look in the mirror, what stares back at me is so distorted and weird that it might as well not be there at all. It really hit me today that I have ZERO idea of how I look.
I mean it.
ZERO.
I don’t know if I’m thin or fat or in-between. I don’t know if I’m ugly or pretty or homely or acceptable. I don’t know anything at all about my appearance.
Is that good? I don’t think so. It means I still have so far to go…
How do you get over this strange feeling that you really cannot comprehend how you honestly look to those around you?
Ideas? Thoughts? Hints? Help!
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2 opinions for I may as well be a vampire
Claire
Jul 28, 2008 at 10:47 pm
Have you tried taking a picture of yourself? Sometimes when I feel like I have no idea what I look like, I’ll snap a picture of myself on my digital camera (I won’t print it out - I just look at it). Or otherwise I use my computer’s webcam. It’s strange, the first time my husband showed me how to use the webcam, I saw my face and I was completely blown away by how different I looked (I’ve always thought I had a really chubby, ugly face). I said, Is that what I look like? He said yes. I looked pale and my face was actually thin.
I’ve heard it (body image) gets better eventually.
Matt
Jul 31, 2008 at 2:01 am
You sound exactly like me - my reflection looks utterly different every day based on what i’ve been eating. I realised about a week ago that i haven’t a clue what i look like… yesterday th mirror told me i was looking thin and therefore good, i’ve been sticking to about 800kj per day. last night i got drunk and ate crap food, today my reflection almost makes me physically ill - how can i have gained 20 kilos overnight?
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