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by angelique on May 12th, 2008

This is a hard photo for me to post.

It was taken about two years or so before I became anorexic.

As you can see, I was chubby.

No denying it.

I was unattractive, too… though my husband calls me “cute” in the image, bless his blindness.

Kids made fun of me. Family members said nasty things about me. Strangers even made rude comments.

The irony?

I’m holding in my hand a Barbie doll.

DivineMsM
May 12, 2008 at 11:10 pm

I found my way here from the Lively Women website. I just wanted to let you know that your husband is right - you were cute. I can’t believe anyone made fun of you because of your weight - you were a little heavy by our society’s standards but you weren’t obese. (And I’m not implying it would have been OK to make fun of you if you were obese, just that I know it happens)
angelique
May 13, 2008 at 7:50 am

DMM:

Welcome to Breaking the Mirror!

Oh, how I wish I could have seen the world through my husband and your glasses! :)

Believe me, kids were cruel. Very, very cruel.
Hope Wilbanks
May 13, 2008 at 8:56 am

I agree…you ARE cute in this picture, and I don’t see “chubby” anywhere either. I see a normal, healthy gal. I think we all have distorted perceptions of what we look like. There’s a particular picture I had at one time of myself as a high school senior. When I did Weight Watchers the first time, I kept it posted at my desk, to remind myself of what I wanted to look like again. The funny thing is, back then (in high school), I thought I was fat and constantly tried to lose weight more weight. The difference between me at 17 and me at 28 was CONFIDENCE in myself. :) Oh, how I wish I’d had a lot more self-confidence way back when!